Do you know what actually, in a way, sorta rocks?

Being able to plan a schedule for 2009 even before 2009 happens.

*pats folio (as James Marsden calls it in 27 Dresses)*


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I'm in my Virgo Bubble Space...and it looks like it's going to be a tight space this time around... I guess I just need to be alone for a while...alone in terms of I'm fine most of the time but I just tend to snap at a lot of things...it's time to surf the crimson wave again, and I think that is what's causing this...

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Am halfway through Revolutionary Road..*flaps about* I NEED to finish it before the movie is officially released here, IF it's released here..if not then it's hello Singapore...

So far, I am loving the book...it's...see, there's no megatastic plotline...so far, no one's dead and no one went crazy. The beauty of the book, for me, is the way the words and the use of the words add to the depiction of the characters and the mood.

Dr Normala would be so proud at my application of her Linguistic Application theories...hehehe..but really, in all honesty, Part 1, with all its stagnant imagery and the suffocation of a stagnant life, you could feel your own collar tightening around your throat and the stifling sense of helplessness in a weary and ho drum world.

Then again, I'm imagining Leo's face whenever Frank Wheeler comes into play and Kate Winslet's whenever April Wheeler pops up so I think that adds to the appeal too.. *winks*

I did this on my LiveJournal so I decided that it's only right that I put this on here too...

I'll level with you guys..I'm not very good with pic spams simply because I never know how to put things in order. So look at it this way: All of these (except for number 1) are not in chronological order...this means that from number 2 through number 10, they are all pretty much significant to me in 2008, and none less than the other.

So..here's my 2008 spam!

Backstreet Boys. Always a fangirl for life. This was the year that Nick Carter lost a significant amount of weight, thus forcing me to recheck my own health issues (lose weight, woman!) and haul my ass onto a treadmill every day just so that I'll tone up a little.

It's also the year that Kevin Richardson suddenly appeared back on stage with them (Oh, I'm not sure to whom this picture belongs to so if you want credit, please let me know!) thus creating a whole buzz of OHMYGODS all over the fanbase..There's also that incident where Nick showed off his sexy abs but we shan't take the thunder away from Mr Richardson, shall we? Heh..

After years of silently squealing about these two, I was finally forced to come out of the HSM closet due to the fact that the movie was being released in cinemas instead of the Disney Channel (Damn you Disney for outing me!). And since the inner tweenard in me could not possibly wait for the cable or DVD version to come out, hence the outage was inevitable. I'm glad though, cause these two give me unrealistic hope towards romance, one that Ryan Gosling and Rachel McAdams are still giving me..if they'd finally get together once and for all, get married, have pretty mini-Ryans and mini-Rachels and live happily ever after...

The prettiness that is Zanessa. Guh! I want my own!

My friends. Every year, my friends show me more and more reasons why I should be thankful to have them in my lives. But this year, more than ever, I learned that not every supposed friend will be there for you till the end. And because of that, I treasure the ones who have stuck by me no matter what. You guys have helped me through the worst year ever, and from the bottom of my heart, I thank you.

I have amazing friends. Amazing amazing friends that I can squeal with, be fangirly with, bitch about with, whine with and laugh till we cough with...you guys are Heaven sent...

It's been a year and I'm still loving my AJ..I love my car. I go everywhere with my car. I heart my car.

It wasn't enough that she had a new album. She went ahead and got a new husband too. Telling all cougars everywhere that it's fine, I still love that biatch. Mariah, no matter how crazy and loud you are, I'll always love ya.

Oh, and she came on American Idol which pretty much fulfilled one of my musical fantasies...and David Cook's AMAZING cover of Always Be My Baby made me pee in my pants due to its awesomeness. That is literally my favorite song from her (if I were forced at knife point to decide on one) and to hear it sung in such a hauntingly beautiful manner? GUH! *clutches heart*

Gossip Girl. Chace Crawford. Leighton Meester.

Crack. Lustage. Worship.

What more can I say?

*licks Chace Crawford*

I went to a BSB concert earlier this year. (Was it really this year?!) Being in the front row, with the barricades digging into my chest and tummy was pure bliss.

Started the year as a part time lecturer and am ending the year as a full time lecturer as well as a new Masters student. The fact that I've been running away from the academic line since I graduated in 2007 is an irony that is not lost on me...Sighs, I'm still in denial about it, but I guess it's kinda cool...I won't lie..to see the glint of "Woah!" in people's eyes when I tell them what I do for a living is actually kinda nice...but, I'm still apprehensive I guess...we'll see...maybe next year's entry would sound a little more upbeat...lol...

The year that marked the change in our lives. When your friends start getting married, that is when you realize that we're finally growing up. Ninie and Dianne got married this year..a whole bunch of my friends got engaged...it wouldn't hit me so much if I wasn't close to them, but I am...and these are the same people that I spent my 5 years in university with..where we all went through homesickness together..the late night cram sessions, movie sessions, crying and laughing sessions..all those cliche university imageries that are fed to us through movies, we lived it all together...

And to see them married now, it's...beautiful... :)

P.S. Dianne's wedding pictures aren't available since I was not able to attend her wedding..I'm so making it up in January!

My mom, my best friend, my strength, my sunshine and my joy. She passed away peacefully in October. Though I miss her terribly everyday, I know that she's in a better place. It still hurts, and my heart is still broken, but it's ok...We'll make it through, the whole family will make it through. She left behind a legacy just by being herself. I wish to live part of that legacy.

I love you mama.

As far as I'm concerned, the dream that I had last night wins hands down as The Best Dream Ever.

I was at this resort with a few of my friends, just hanging out and walking around. It was one of our weekend retreats that we've always talked about but have never really actually gone out to do.

As we were walking around, I realized that Prince William and his whole entourage were at our hotel too. Like, that doesn't happen often, if ever. And we heard that he was eating at the hotel restaurant so we took our chances and decided to have dinner there.

Sure enough, there he was, with his entourage and since this is my dream, Kate Middleton doesn't exist and I'm a gorgeous, size 2 brunette with legs to die for. So there!

Anyways, yeah, we were having dinner and suddenly, I receive a written note by him from the Maître d', saying that he'd like us to join him for dinner. I glance over and catch him smiling at me with that Zefron head tilt in the Say Ok video that I'm obsessed about.

We say yes and go over, squeezing with the entourage. Prince William and I started talking and yes, since this is my dream, I was fantabulous with the conversation, not awkward at all, which then resulted in him asking my friends and I to accompany him to this parade thingy that they were holding the next day at this stadium/field/big ass land of emptiness where people go around marching.

Forward to the next day and we're again with his entourage and he asks me to personally sit next to him in his box. Woo hoo! So we sit there, watching, and it was just seriously a lot of fun hanging out with this guy. However, the parade wasn't so much a parade but rather like a group of people from different colleges I guess, who were competing to see who had the best marching band or something. So when Prince William's band came out, everyone was hooting like frat boys, excited.

Just like in the movies, before the results were even announced, everyone seemed to have acquired a sixth sense and the moment Prince William's band had finished (since he studied at Eton, it would have been Eton, wouldn't it?), they somehow knew that they'd won.

And this is when he swooped in and kissed me. *fans self* It was a long one too...*victory hands* and still reeling from it, when we pulled back, I kinda grinned and went, "Wow.." Hehehe....

We sat down next to each other again, holding hands, and I have no idea why the other groups wanted to continue with the competition since somehow "Eton" had won...but they did and lalalaaa...until one of my girlfriends got up from her seat and pulled me away to squeal into my ear.

As usual, my answer was, "I don't know! I don't know!" and before we could analyze any furthur, the crowd had started to pile out and I was suddenly caught in the wave of people. Before I had begun to panic though, I felt an arm grab my waist and pull me to the side, hidden by a pillar of sorts. It was him and he was just looking at me. I asked him what's wrong and he said that he didn't know..that he'd never felt that way kissing someone..

Woot..

And some other stuff that involved a banquet, a magician and a really tall staircase overlooking a swimming pool but they are pretty insignificant.


So yeah..and then I wake up to this effery and I think to myself, "WHY IN THE WORLD WAS IT NOT PRINCE HARRY?!?!?!?!?!"

My goodness..Prince Harry...you're just like fine wine, aren't you? *fans self*

A review that is extremely belated but a review is still a review and after reading Judith Mcnaught's A Kingdom of Dream, I was determined to do one.

First of all, I have to disclaimer on the fact that though I love romance novels, I'm somewhat wishy-washy with Judith Mcnaught. She is a lot of hits but also a lot of misses for me. I am absolutely in love with Paradise (Oh, I have something to blog about Paradise later) but I was lukewarm towards Perfect. I absolutely LOVE Almost Heaven. And now, I'm enamoured by A Kingdom of Dreams.

The book, in its premise, is about two characters who are, by right, destined to be enemies. And not in a general sense but in its literal entity. England and Scotland in the past weren't exactly what we would call buddy-buddy.

So Jennifer Merrick and Royce Westmoreland. Those are two stubborn, strong-headed characters if you've ever seen one.

See, Royce's people kidnapped Jenny (the fact that she shares the same name of a Gossip Girl character spoiled it for me initially) and her sister Brenna because they were the daughters of clan leader in Scotland. They thought that they'd get the upper hand by presenting a trade off of sorts.

What they did not count on was that Jenny and her sister would attempt to escape, of which they did.

What Jenny and Brenna did not count on was that they would get caught and be brought back to the English camp.

What the English camp did not count on was that their leader would fall for their prisoner.

And so the tale unfolds.

It's a story based on lies garnered by people. People who were adament in seeing the both of them apart. And of the reality that no matter what, if the love is strong and pure, it will somehow find its way back in the arms of each other.

Oi....I cried like a loser when I finished reading it. And this is coming from a girl who seldom cries when she reads her romance novels. Only a handfull have succeeded in breaking down my defensense. A Kingdom Of Dreams certainly did.

Yes, that means, GO OUT AND BUY IT.

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Why is it that the one book you really want is the one book you can't seem to get?

I'm not an ebay.com person or an Amazon.com kinda gal cause shipping from those sites are expensive as opposed to actually buying them from stores here so that's why, no, I didn't try them sites.

Thing is, Paradise from Judith Mcnaught, has pretty much been available in the past. I've never really had any problems finding it before.

Until I actually read the book and decided that I wanted to buy it (I'd borrowed it from the hospital rental shop intially).

I.could.not.find.it.anywhere.

Thankfully, Mel's working part time at Borders and she managed to cop for me a copy. The ONLY copy. After the new stock came in.

So YAY!!! Omg YAY!! I finally has my copies!!!!

....together with Atonement, Revolutionary Road and To Die For...ZOMG..I have too many books to read....help! Meep!

Merry Christmas darlings..may the holiday season bring you joy and happiness, surrounded by your loved ones!!

Oh, the sweet agony that is Ghost Whisperer.

I've been lagging on my episodes when it comes to this show because for a while, I was beginning to feel as though the subject matter was becoming too redundant. I mean, no one should joke about death, but there's only so much, "What's that light?" moments that a girl could take, you know?

Anyways, I stumbled upon a spoiler recently which made me burst out into a chorus of, "Nooooooooooooo!!"-s and started watching it again mid-season.

*Spoiler ahead*



Of ALL the things they should NOT have done, killing off Jim is probably the biggest no-no.

Jim? Come on guys, seriously? You're lucky you didn't kill off the hotness that is David Conrad per se. But killing Jim is so wrong in SO MANY ways...

Do you have any idea how perfect Jim Clancy is? Like seriously?

*Pouts*

And now he's dead? Like...sighs...I just hope you guys have something good in store...

So, on with the doowoop that is the tearfest of Imaginary Friends and Enemies and Threshold. Two effing episodes that made me bawl my eyes out...

*pouts*








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My Chris Lowell captures are slowly becoming a weekly thing, which is GOOD. Why? Cause we're seeing more of Dell. Which is GOOD.

Spell it with me now, "G - O - O - D"

Theme for this week: Dell Is Very Much Amused

The end.

And can we just take a moment to recognize just how gorgeous Kate Walsh was in this week's episode. Forget the fact that she's annoying me more and more every week. The old-school glamor look is perfect on her.



And red-heads should always wear green.

P.S. Apparently, she's getting a divorce because she's crushing on Christopher Hayden David Sutcliffe. Like, dude, that's Rory's dad. How can you NOT have a crush on him?

Blog layout was changed due to the fact that the old one was not allowing me to have/connect/activate my RSS feed..so now my RSS feed is available! Woo hoo!!

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Dear Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgens,

I love you guys together, I really do. In fact, the both of you are giving me unrealistic expectations in romance. I squee like a crazed fangirl whenever I see pictures of you together. If I could have it my way, I'd want the both of you to stay together forever and never part, like, ever.

But please stop (well, not really but I need to bitch just cause I don't have what they have) taking adorable pictures together.

Source

Because this heart cannot take the overflow of squeeing...

Thanks.

Oh, and keep being nauseously in love. Sighs..I'll live vicariously through you guys...

Love

Me

Taufik videos are up! Had some free time tonight (well, looking at the time, last night I mean) so I thought I might as well upload them while I was cleaning my harddisk...



Taufik doing Thriller (my video capturing has vastly improved from the shakiness that was the BSB concert earlier this year)



Taufik doing Beat It.

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You know you love me.

XOXO

If you've ever wanted to know how it feels like to maneuver around turns like them F1 drivers, just take a ride at the new CIQ Complex in JB.

Dude, let's just say that if you have motion sickness, it's best you drive REALLY slowly...

The new Immigration Checkpoint in JB was launched on Tuesday, and Firah, being, well, Firah, I used it today.

Well, right after I got lost, trying to find it.

It's a milestone actually, considering for as long as I've remembered it (translated to pretty much my whole life), the CIQ complex has always been there..right after that huge mo' fo' Caltex petrol station. To suddenly see it closed up and empty, it was.......sad.....before reality hit me and I realized that I didn't know where in the WORLD the new complex was.

All we had were sad plastic wrapped paper-printed signs that said, "Woodlands" (insert arrow of direction) that pretty much disappeared after a while. It made me feel like I was looking for a someone's house during a Malay wedding rather than trying to find the international border between Singapore and Malaysia.

After circling JB town a couple of times (and spotting some frustrated Singaporeans who had to stop their cars at the side of the road near Jalan Dobi to ask for directions from the cops that were littered all over the place for this exact reason), I too, flagged down two police officers who willingly helped me out. LOL..after they gave me the look of, "Oh man...not you too..." It was actually REALLY funny to see all the drivers looking pissed off and confused...it was pretty much a massive "WHERE LAAAAAAAAAAH????" moment that I was witnessing..historic too actually..heh...

So guys...go to Stulang, and not the city center. Follow the signboard that says The Zon and sooner or later, you'll see one big arse signboard that says Woodlands...and jackpot. I repeat, do NOT go to the city center..all you get is a big U-Turn.

Oh, and bring your Touch N' Go card cause that is how you'll pay for your toll later on when you're driving back.

Happy exploring!

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Was today Ass Hole Day on the roads? Sighs...

I was at the Singapore Checkpoint, driving out to the secondary clearance area when I suddenly heard a horn being blasted behind me.

It was a car that had come out of the other lane and had suddenly switched into my lane when I made that turn.

And he suddenly started gesturing rude signs of anger, which left me to much confusion since I didn't even DO anything wrong.

Best part? Despite me sticking to my lane and trying to avoid from being in his lane, he continued to sidle next to me closely (perhaps trying to show that he's some big shot driver lalallaa) IN THE MIDDLE of the checkpoint area.

Ok, which part of internal extreme immigration security did he not get?

When we reached the secondary clearance area (where we had to get out of the car to let the officers check it), the guy actually had the nerve to blast me in front of the officers..like literally scream at me...

And the officers stood back and looked with amused smiles on their faces (not that I can blame them).

I waited for this old dude to finish his tirade and calmly told him that his car was behind mine and that I was in my own lane...

Of course I was wrong..Of course I didn't know what I was doing despite having driven through the same bloody checkpoint for, oh 2 years now, at least 3 times per month.

So I just looked at him and went, "Fine, whatever!" and got into my car cause what was the point? I wasn't going to cause a jam just cause some old fart was too stupid and narcissistic to realize that he was wrong..

Did it end there? Nope..

He decided to tailgate me all the way out of the checkpoint area and onto the BKE...I was on the fastlane, driving at 100km/h on a 90km/h road. This is Singapore, land of speed cameras..I couldn't go any faster. And the lane next to me was empty so anyone who wanted to speed could have easily just gone there instead.

Guess what the old fart did? Tailgated me and pressed his horn non-stop for roughly a minute.

Dude, the thing is, I LOVED being in that position. You know why? Cause if I had to suddenly break, he'd have hit me and HE would have to pay for the damages...lalala...And besides, anyone looking from the outside would go, "Why is this old fart blasting his horn like a madman?"

Anyways, the old fart's exit came and he had to scramble to suddenly switch to 4 lanes to his left.

I swear...some people are just so....stupid.

I have no sense of rhythm OR coordination whatsoever.

This fact is so true that I am not ashamed to admit it.

Mano held a Guitar Hero World Tour party at her house yesterday and I jumped at the chance of touching the plastic guitar seeing that we only have a PS2 at home and I had never played Guitar Hero, like, ever.

Little did I know that I ended up straining my leg muscles on the drums first before severely spasming my fingers on the guitar. LOL...I SUCK on the drums...

Serena Van der Woodsen was lying. Guitar Hero is NOT easy. I'm coordinatedly-challenged...

BUT it was a whole basket of fun. The laughs, the curses, the screams and the incredibly intense facial expressions provided by 4 Virgos were just hilarious. I think at the end of the day, we were suffering from cross-eye due to the constant staring at the screen..

And then, we were OFF to Simei....my friend who shall remain nameless *winks* and I were there to see Taufik/attend his album autographing session. Yes, after all these years, I finally made the effort to see him all the way in Simei. Like, of ALL places, I had to go to Simei.

Little did he know that all I had to do while I was a kid was look out of my bedroom window and I'll immediately see Simei...

See, cause it's more random for a Malaysian to be in Simei than for them to be in, say, anywhere else in Singapore really. Hehehe..but yeah, we stood back as the crowd surrounded the stage. It wasn't massive so I wasn't annoyed..lol...my friend and I ended up snarking a lot at, well, pretty much anything...I mean, I'm sorry..I love you Taufik but some of the stage antics are just... Macam mat lah bang...takleh tahan...

Yes, I did some of my classic eye-rolling and eyebrow-raising...it was just too tempting..hehe...To be fair though, Taufik sounded REALLY good live...Like he sounds better live than he does on the album. He performed Suria Hatiku and immediately my friend and I realized that it was a Ne-Yo-ish song...very influenced...

And then he sang a ballad, Nafasku, and we were trying to figure out what song it reminded us of when suddenly I went, "It's like catching lightning..." The HSM 3 waltz number! Can I Have This Dance!

Lolololol...it's so similar that it's scary..BUT seriously, the song is made of love so YAY!!!

I took a couple of videos of him dancing to Beat It...will upload them when, well, when I'm not in a lazy mood..heh..

We joined the line after buying the album and yeah...well..pretty much a typical album signing session really...went up the stage...said hi to him...lol..he was pretty much besotted by my friend (I don't care babe..In my mind he's besotted by you!) and I pathetically and brain-fartedly went, "Hi..ah..I came from JB.."

Smart, I know. *snort*

But he looked genuinely surprised and immediately stretched out his hand for a handshake. I grabbed on to it like a vise...heh..at least it's an actual handshake, not like the time I molested Brian Littrell's hand when we were taking a group photo. Hahahaa..good times.... :

And in the mass of them calling on the next group of people, they remembered that I wanted to take a picture with him...and so I did..not before he shot the randomest question of the day, which was, "Is that your camera?"

Of which, I of course, answered, "Yes.." Like duh...but lol...in all seriousness though, Taufik Batisah in real life? Is all kinds of hot. Like really hot. And really nice. I know I didn't get much interaction time with him but from what I saw, he seems genuinely nice and normal.

<3<3<3<3

And the album? IS ALL KINDS OF AWESOME. I know I've given him flack over the years..I can't help it that I'm critical...but this album? You should take a listen to it. It's seriously AMAZING. And it's on constant repeat. And right now, the one that grabs on to my heart is the last track, Khayalan...and track 2 and 6 and 7 and..well..pretty much ALL except Hey because that song makes me want to go, "Oi!"

But the rest of the album was well-written and the songs were beautifully arranged. A lot of ballads and there's even one where he duets with Hady Mirza...very very well done...

Heeee...oh..and the picture of me and Taufik's on my Facebook. Again, not showing it here..too much information dude!

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Tagged by Syima and because this is FUN!

List these rules on your blog.

* Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog.
* Tell 7 unspectacular quirks of yours.
* Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
* Link the person who tagged you.
* Leave a comment for each blogger.


7 Facts About Moi

1. I have an obsession for books. As in I cannot borrow books. Borrowing books annoy me. I always have to actually purchase the book, wrap it up nicely with plastic wrapping before I feel contented. Most of the time, I end up reading 3-4 books at a time after buying too many at one time.

2. I have low self-esteem towards everything. And I would like to apologize to all my friends who have had to suffer through my insecurities. I do not think of myself as smart, pretty, kind or patient. I may have more self-confidence now but I think I'll always be insecure. But I do not believe in using that as an excuse.

3. I hate crowds. If there's a crowd, I would do my best to avoid being caught in the middle of it.

4. I do not like it when people automatically assume that just because I might be amiable, they have a right to think that they know me. I am anything but typical and if you can't see that yet, then you don't really know me that well.

5. I take betrayal seriously. I love my friends to death and I am loyal to death but the moment I discover the betrayal, I usually make their lives hell.

6. I don't think a lot of people like me very much. :/ I don't know why..maybe it's cause I talk a lot and am annoying. I sometimes think that I'm more of an annoyance in their lives rather than a welcomed interruption. *bring in the shrinks!*

7. I have a love affair with the English language. Everything about it makes me happy. But I suck at spelling.



7 unspectacular quirks

1. No matter how much flack I get for this, I, till this day, love the Backstreet Boys and Mariah Carey. I have my reasons, and it's not just because, "OMGTHEYARESOCUTE!" and "OMGHERSONGSAREAWESOME!"

2. I tend to do a lot of spontaneous shopping. And I do suffer from buyer's remorse.

3. I apologize to my food if I don't finish them. Liza and Yana can attest to that. Hehehe...

4. I am really bad at letting things go when I know that there's still hope although the hope itself might paint me as being pathetic.

5. I suck at making jokes. Except when the joke's on me.

6. Helping out friends and listening to their problems always give me a sense of satisfaction and happiness. I wish they know that I really will be there for them to help them whenever I can.

7. I drive like a maniac because I have three men in my family who drive like maniacs. And I treat my car as though she's alive.


7 People Tagged

1. Maha
2. Farah (Who is in Singapore but lalalalaaa)
3. Ninie
4. SKPN
5. Kak Myra
6. Liza
7. Jen

Dear Chace Crawford,

The readers of this blog (as well as my real life friends) are aware of my mentally licking you whenever I see a picture of you.

Little did I know, Cosmopoliton.com would also feel the same way about you.

You're oh so pretty and I really wuv you.

Love

Me

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The Starbucks Cheer Party went swell last night. At the risk of this entry being discovered by one of the baristas (for, though there are a lot of them, there's roughly only about, well, one Firah who attended the party last night) I'm only going to go as far as saying that it was a nice surprise to see my favourite Cutey Barista attending as well.


I initially thought that it was only for the loyal customers at the City Square chain but turns out, it was a JB thing so the place was pretty packed...and hot since the AC was down...*wince*

But it was a LOT of fun...I'm not spontaneous, anyone can attest to that, but it was nice to see that heh, there are others far more obsessed with Starbucks than I am (and a bit reassuring too cause I was beginning to think that I was the only freak

Pictures, as always, are up on Facebook. I'd love to share them here but unfortunately, I've reassessed certain things about my blogs/Friendster/Facebook and I realized that I've been giving out TOO much info (as per what my Stat Counter seems to notice).

Hence, lest I feel it's necessary, unfortunately, all personal photos will now be constricted to my Facebook account...and yes, that is why my Friendster is no longer updated and Facebook is now set under Friends Only

And, again, Cutey Barista, you are just TOO DARN CUTE.

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She may have received a lot of flack from a lot of people but if they'd take a second to see past the wadrobe choices or her "eternally 12" way of seeing things, they might be able to see the other, more important and less superficial side of her...

One of the reasons that I love her so, apart from her voice, apart from the lyrics that she inspires from her songs, apart from her attitude in life to basically always smile even when things get you down, is her love for her fans and her charity.

Like, seriously yo, before you call me a psych!fan...the one thing anyone can attest when it comes to Miz Carey is the fact that she is always gracious to her fans...so yeah...

I love Mariah. There's no shame in it. Beats being a closet fan..*shrugs*

P.S. That dress? And that color? GORGEOUS.

So, Farah should be on her way, or is preparing to be on her way to Singapore...

*Waves to Farah*

See, this is funny cause I shouldn't be waving considering you're moving nearer..so I'll just stand here with my arms open wide, welcoming you to the awesome land that is called the Singa of the Pura...

I'll be seeing you soon babe!!!!

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On another note;

It's amazing, you know, how some people call you their friends but in turn stab you in the back. And, the best part is when they see you cry about it and just keep on feeding the flame..it's amazing that some people have no sense of remorse, shame or guilt.

And it's amazing cause after years of betrayal, that friend has finally found out about it and is pretty much ready to cut a bitch up...

I just hope, for the sake of that friend, that the betrayer's identity is never revealed.

This Leighton/Blair-Chace/Nate picspam is for Maha, Sri and Syima...cause only you guys can appreciate the cuteness that are these two...

Just click on the link: http://bambistarlight.livejournal.com/66133.html

Yo...I got invited to a Starbucks party this Friday? Siapa nak ikut? Heh...

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So, the backstabbing people of my past? Thanks. Thanks for ruining the last 6 years of my life.

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Oh Chris Lowell, what are you doing to me? Even pissed-off you is hot...sighs...

OMG GOSSIP GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

ARE YOU EFFING KIDDING ME?! HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO WAIT FOR JANUARY 5TH FOR THIS?!?!!!!?!?!?!?!?

*Hyperventilates*

i32$23%$?@#%049588~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Oh my beating heart! It jumps, it screams, it cheers at the unity that is Nate and Blair as they match their pensive look together.

Even their pensive look matches. How is that even possible? How can anyone match the acute pensivity that belongs solely to Chace Crawford?

Speaking of which...




A half smile just for Blair. *clutches heart* Say it isn't so.

Chace Crawford, WHEN I meet you (Cause I'll be damned if I'm not exercising the hours wasted on reading The Secret), please give me that kind of smile and let me die happy?

*THUD*

I'm just happy, yo. Happy. As sad as it was that Bart died, I'm happy.

Oh yeah..and that small thing between Rufus and Lily..sorta saw that coming..heh...

I just wish that they hadn't gone with the 6 years, 6 months anology though..hmm..

Honestly, I have no idea what sparked it but I had a dream about Dr Robert Chase and Dr Allison Cameron last night.

Yes, Dr. I-Need-A-Massive-Haircut-And-Need-To- Learn-How-To-Smile and Dr I-Need-To-Realize-That- Blonde-Does-Nothing-For-Me.

(I love you Jeh-sseeeeeee baby!! )

Anyways, I was at the hospital and oddly enough, I was embodying either Chase or Cameron. It'll switch...like at certain rooms, I'll be Cameron and in other rooms, I'll be Chase. Throughout the whole thing, those two were as lovey-dovey as they could get.

And there was one point where I was embodying Chace and Cameron had just discovered that she's infected by this crazy virus so she hugs Chace for dear life and I could feel the grip that she had on him, meaning me.

And at the end of the dream aka the shift, I suddenly become myself and as we walk to the carpark, they become Jesse Spencer and Jennifer Morrison. I'm walking with Jennifer Morrison and telling her that really, the only reason that I watch the show is because of her and Jesse...and we see Jesse speed off with his girlfriend in the car (Cause, yes, if you still didn't know, Jesse and Jennifer broke up eons ago and I'm still grieving)

Uh, yeah, the end...

Adda's engagement party was GORGEOUS. The best. Awesome.

I want to get married.

*sighs*

Kerun and Aizat stayed over at my place for the weekend to attend the celebrations as well and I took them around JB to see the sights, sounds and smells of JB..hehe...

Since it's Adda's story and not mine, there's nothing much I can say really except that she will make an exceptional bride come April. It was nice to be around IIUM peeps again..I'm constantly reminded of how awesome you guys are..hehe...but seriously, it was absolutely gorgeous..

And Syima, you HAVE to make it to the wedding..Insyaallah, we'll all be free eh? Then it'll be a totally awesome girls' night in AND out!

Pictures are in my Facebook account..I'm incredibly lazy to put them up here..lol..sorry!

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I don't want to walk down that path again. I know I have been doing just that but I want to stop. Why can't I stop? Why can't I stop rehashing what's over and done with?

And why can't it be completely gone? Why must there always be some fragmants of it left?

Why? Why does it have to be like this when it could easily be something else?

My words for the next episode of Gossip Girl may be summed up in this picture as:

So, growing up, I think I was about 8 or 9 when my late mom sat me down to watch a late night movie on TV. It was my first Michelle Pfeiffer movie, Married To The Mob, before the ever CLASSIC Catwoman. God, I love her as Catwoman, you have no idea. It was definitely on a weekend when we watched it on Channel 5 cause we were never allowed to watch tv on weeknights with school the next day and all. She had a habit of asking me to accompany her when it came to watching movies and I guess that was where I got my "entertainment" streak from. Heh..if she were here today, she'd snort and say that it was never her thing and that it was my dad's influence..Heh..yeah right...my dad took care of the music side...my mom always taught me the fine world of movies..hehe...

And, sitting through Married To The Mob, I remember, till this day, having the BIGGEST crush on Matthew Modine at that time. Yes, I was already ZOMGHE'SSOCUTE! at the age of 8.

Sue me.

Of course, at that age, I was still sekritly going ZOMG, when in public I was really supposed to be indifferent about boys..So that crush on Matthew Modine (despite the fact that he's WAY older I am/was) remained a secret...

BUT..for those of you who've wondered why I like pretty-faced boys, there goes your answer. It was a childhood thing..I had crushes on pretty-faced actors since I was a kid...

Watching the movie now, today, made me realize something though...something I NEVER knew or noticed...kinda spooked me...


Him and Connor Paolo? THEY LOOK FREAKISHLY ALIKE.

:|

Do you know what looks epic?



THIS looks epic. As in everything about this promo is making me brim with excitement for this Tuesday's episode. (Tuesday here, Monday night there...geography pfft!)

And we'd been teased by TONS of Leighton/Chace pictures so it'd better not be a rip-off. And I'm trying to like Chuck again. He's been irritating the hell out of me for a while now.

But clone!Blair and clone!Chuck? WERE DAMN EFFING HILARIOUS. I literally LOL-ed when clone!Chuck spoke at the obligatory 1 word per second speed that Ed Westwick has so perfectly mastered...

Actually on a side note, I don't think Ed speaks that way on a normal basis.



Especially not when he's interacting with Chace..muahahaa...Gotta love the bromance...and yes, I know I've posted this before but so what? It's a fun interview and Chace looks so ZOMGPRETTY so I don't mind..heh..

Blair/Leighton, I effing LOVE YOU. You are the bitch that I want to be....sighs...

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So, I've been fangirling on Dave Anabele from Brothers and Sisters for a while now..I mean what's there not to like about his character? He's a recovering drug addict who went to war and decided to run away from being stop loss-ed. He also started having an affair with his supposed step-sister who turned out to not be his step-sister and remains adorable as hell while he's at it.

A gem.

But seriously though..Dave Anable's adorable in all the interviews so far and he talks A LOT. And he digresses A LOT.

AND...lalalalaa....I can add one more person to the Firah's Narcissistic We-Share-The-Same-Birthday List.

Cause his birthday's on the 15th of September too!! WOOOOOOOOOOT!

Once in a turquoise blue moon, my fandoming gets the best of me and my fingers itch to make a fan video. Truth be told, fan videos are HARD. You have to find the right song and the right footage to stick into the video. And when your subject matter doesn't have that many scenes together (at least useful scenes), it rather leaves you in a quandary...

But I've been in love with Human Nature's Don't Say Goodbye since I was 13 years old and I just thought that the song is too pretty to be left alone. So....here goes...






I'm not very good but I did try!!